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Untrustworthy thoughts.
But if I can't trust myself, then who would help from what haunts.
Abused by my own thoughts.
If heard what they say, you'd also fear your own thoughts.
And understand how I've wrought,
as I battle these thoughts.
It's while buried deep in my thoughts
I try teaching experiences taught.
To steer you from what's preceded these thoughts, it's like I'm nothing if naught.
Without the feeling of love my thoughts just repeat "ABORT"!
This life,
fighting only to be rewarded with strife
Fantasizing toxic solutions with a knife
I'm the broken trying to give healing advice
Not allowed to try, built up faith that dies
Reriggered every morning as I wake up alone,
remembering there's no one to reach for not even through phone.
Wanting to fall back to sleep but then, my mind just attacks again, and that's how each day begins,
ALONE WITH THOUGHTS THAT ALWAYS WIN😭!!!

Excuse me while I save (m(y)(our) life,
Never to be accepted, with heart on the line.
Saying we're okay, but always feeling otherwise.
Pointing where to look hoping to open up (y)our eyes.
Wantng after we say this,
then next we'll mean that.
Together healing old wounds to create our own track.
Breaking cycles of the old path to never look back.
A goal to perceive our own future,
I thought you knew that.
With you I was ever grateful,
Fighting to prevent what could come undone.
Temptations reappear to break the faithful,
Evil trying to prevent what could become.

With all we've seen with our eyes,
To the truth we still look away!
In eachother the solution resides,
And yet to still pull away!

The cycle goes,
against the tide pulling us away from the flow.
In eachother we know, and yet through difficult times we ignore what results show.
Temptation always seems easier to quicker fall and not climb up slow, but fuck no!
Rich or broke.
Lets make moves to continue applying all that we know.
There has never been pain like this since the last time feeling nowhere to go.
Asked why I don't try by myself, like there's anything worth seeing when standing alone.
What's to see when feeling so low,
breaking from the broken before,
always called captain save some hoes,
I accept acknowledging the pain that goes.
And I swear everynight I was deep in prayer,
only due to inadequacy still to fail,
and yet after all of the struggle
Yet again having faith to be left feeling betrayal!

I don't want to be it again..
I don't want to go on the defense.
I don't want to be it again..
I never wanted to resort to the Sic'ness!

It's MY feelings, my choice, and I make them,
So to me love isn't someone else's common phrase. 
So you can hold me to the phrase when I say that I'll always be your safe space. 
My word is our bond so anything I say is never just a phase. 
I choose not to be just a phase, 
my arms never intangible being a home awaiting to cuddle if you choose to make them your safe place.



With all we've seen with our eyes,
To the truth we still look away!
In eachother the solution resides,
And yet to still pull away...